“…Why Are You So Nice to Me?”
7/6/12 (6th day/3:00a.m.)—Awakened in the dark night, I turned on my flashlight to see the time. Seeing it was only 3a.m., I tried to continue sleeping. After about half an hour I find myself still very much awake and couldn’t sleep. This happens to me at times. And when it happens, i see it as GOD’s way of letting me know that He desires to spend time with me and i with Him by prayer and the reading of His Word.
So I rose up and spent the rest of the night in communion with our LORD. After reading a chapter from Psalms, I proceeded to read in one of the Books of the Gospel. At this time I was reading from Luke 12. Reaching and reading verses 32 and 37, my eyes suddenly well up and tears started flowing down my cheeks. Sobbing and in tears, I couldn’t help but utter these words, “My GOD, why are you so nice to me?”
All my life, I felt that GOD has lavished me with His love, despite my sinfulness, and many times falling and failing as I journeyed along life’s way… And like David, I see myself and say that my sins are ever before me…
This kind of love that I have received and continue to receive from our loving and gracious GOD, I feel I do not deserve… For what good have I done to deserve His love?! Nothing, really… For while I was yet a sinner, He already loved me… and even gave His life for me.
Continuing in life, I keep falling and failing, sometimes submerged and steeped in the mire of sin, and He sends His sweet Spirit to reach out to me, lift me up from my fallen state, and patiently work in my life and my heart that I may be cleansed of all my impurities and defects of mind and character.
Not only that, my LORD is even up there in heaven, interceding continually in my behalf and your behalf before the Father, that we may be reconciled and abide in a loving relationship with our gracious and merciful GOD…
Such love is too awesome, too high and lofty, I cannot comprehend it… And this kind of love breaks my heart of stone, changing it into a heart of flesh that desires to love Him back sincerely, purely and faithfully… and out of sheer gratitude, share His loving acceptance and unconditional love with others met along life’s way…
How much pleasure and joy it gives as hearts respond with the desire to love back, springing with loving gestures and expressions that make up and establish a friendship and loving relationship which I look forward to last till eternity…
Our loving GOD desires to have the same experience with each of us His children, I know. He lavishes us with His love, hoping that we may come to recognize Him and appreciate His love for us and trust Him and love Him back truly… He longs to have a loving, intimate relationship with each of us. And as we respond to His love with love, as well, I know that it gives Him joy, seeing that He is accepted and His love is appreciated… And He longs even more for this loving relationship to last till eternity!
GOD demonstrates His love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us. Romans 5:8
It is written, “Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which GOD has prepared for them that love Him.” 1 Corinthians 2:9
Even in death Minnie words continue to inspire me to love Jesus more.
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One of the volunteers here, Minnie Pardillo, died Sunday morning at
12:45 AM from cerebral malaria.
From every avenue and angle - everything possible was done by everyone
involved to save her life.
Her death is surreal, shocking, horrifying, senseless.
There are no words.
Yet a thousand pages would not be enough to fully express everything I
am feeling
I was the nurse primarily taking care of her.
I am professionally devastated.
Everyone here is trying to grapple with this and its ramifications in
their own way.
Don't ask us if we are okay because none of us are.
I'm not doing okay.
Not in any way, not even a little bit.
I have never felt as completely wrecked as I do right now.
I feel like all my strength, willpower, passion, love, and endurance has
been emptied onto the dirt and that I'm just sitting there staring at mud.
Myself and everyone here could use your non-judgmental love, support,
encouragement, and prayers.
Minnie was a rare individual in that she was genuine and pure in her
passion for people, and she was dedicated to serving her God no matter
the cost to herself.
She was loving and and kind and steadfast in what she believed to be her
calling - to follow her Jesus no matter where he led her - and to
unselfishly share that Jesus.
She radiated peace, joy, and love and saw people as individuals -
demonstrating in countless ways how much she cared about them personally.
She cared deeply for the Tchadian people, and they for her. She always
prioritized relationships.
I would like to extend my sincere condolences to her family. Please
know that many people's lives were changed and their suffering was
lessened simply because her path merged with theirs.
If there ever was a child of God - this was one.
To quote my friend Cristin: "...she truly believed she was fulfilling
her purpose in life, and that is more than most of us ever achieve."
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